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(3/28/12)

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Lilsis (lilsis)


January 10, 2012

Cancer Info


Cervical Cancer


November 3, 2011


Stage 4


07


Taxol (Paclitaxel), Carboplatin (Paraplatin)


that there is no cure


How painful it is..on many levels


In liver, breast, gall bladder


trying to figure this one out




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Lilsis's Cancer Blog

Lilsis's Memorial
(3/28/2012)


RIP Lilsis
by Blogforacure
by Kelly
by Kellye

In To The Arms of The Lord
by Sharon(Sherri)
makayla
by darlad
by Valerie

by Carla
by CarolS
RIP Denise
by Laurie

Rest in Peace
by Paul
a better place
by Glenn
by Fred

by Debbie
by Billan
by Eileen

May peace be with you
by Sharron
Rest in Peace
by Nanice
May you rest in peace
by Martha

Peace to you.
by Ann
by Kim
by Flogger

Rest in Peace
by Susie
by P
In sympathy.
by Andrea

May you feel love and peace!
by Kathyo
by Danean
by Sandyjo

love and peace
by Carol
by Jenner
Denise, you always told me "I LOVE YOU MORE" and I
by Lilsis

Rest in peace.
by Ruth
Rest in peace
by Brian
by Nan

The Lord is our shepard R.I.P
by Angelica

Light Candle

Wanted to stop and say HI since D's passing

Just wanted to give a BIG SHOUT OUT TO YOU ALL! I’ve been thinking about you ALL and your journey.

I miss my SIS so much. I wish she had her phone with her so I could call and talk to her.
I look at her Facebook page many times throughout the day, I guess deep down I’m expecting an update. Instead I see her boyfriend’s post of how hard and difficult it is on him and how much he misses her and wants her back. I have a heavy heart for our mom and my SIS oldest son, it’s extremely difficult for them. I miss her terribly!

I have great friends and my husband is my rock, I don’t know what I would do without them. My life is forever changed, I know I have to focus on the “good that comes from the bad”, with that being said, the relationship between her 2 sons and I are flourishing. There will forever be a bond between us, I love those kids!

I hope and pray this is a good month for everyone and that you all continue doing the best you can. TAKE CARE AND I WILL BE BACK

Posted on May 3, 2012 at 11:02:58 AM by Lilsis (, 3 comments, 411 views)
Kathysman likes this.
5 people sent you a hug.

So good to hear from you and happy to hear that you are alright. These are difficult times for you..the loss for you tremendous, but you have the blessing of her children and I am so happy for you..she lives on through them..wonderful! Here’s to hoping today is a little less painful. Sending hugs! Eileen

avatar Posted on May 3, 2012 at 11:54:26 AM by Eileen

Thanks for checking in with us. I can say from my experience with my “Big Sis” and her son that you will be so important to those kids going forward. You are a physical link to their mom in a way that is completely unique and will have a lot of meaning for them as the years go on. I’m so glad you can be there for them (and i think you will find that the relationship will bring some comfort to you as well, make the sense of loss just a little more bearable). Keep us posted on how you and the family are doing. We’ll be thinking of you. Hugs-Ann

avatar Posted on May 3, 2012 at 1:32:10 PM by Ann

It’s good to hear from you. Hugs with my sincerest condolences ands prayers.

avatar Posted on May 3, 2012 at 2:11:48 PM by Private User

I was dreading the day of this post........

About my sister…..My BIB SIS, Denise was taken to the ER early Wednesday morning because she was not feeling well.
Shortly after arriving her heart stopped..She had a “DNR” form signed. I can’t believe she is gone, I can’t believe it happened like that.
My heart is completely shattered, I feel so lost and alone without her here. She was my last sibling. 27 yr ago TODAY, I lost my sister Lisa in an auto accident.
I don’t think it was meant for me to have a sister to grow old with…life isn’t fair at times

I was able to get my sister down to my house on the 10th -13th this month, we sat outside on the porch the majority of the time since she was too tired to want to do anything. She then went into a Hospice House after returning home on the 15th and was discharged a few days later on oxygen 27-7. My sis actually had her cigarettes confiscated, LOL, yep, she lit one up and got busted in the house.
I was up to see her on the 24th and thought she was a lot better off than before she down at my house, very with it, sharp and her ole self. She was able to get around, use the bathroom, shower and smoke her cig’s. Mom told me on Monday that she wasn’t eating nor drinking much since Sat, sis said it was too difficult to swallow.
Tuesday, she sat outside on her porch in the same chair for 9 hours and didn’t once move, only to smoke, she nodded off most of the day and finally went to bed.
At 3 a.m. is when she woke my mother up to take her to the ER, she fell in the bathroom and my mom had to call the ambulance to take her. When she arrived in the ER she was talking to the staff and she asked the Dr “why does it feel like I only have 15 minutes to live???” My mom arrived shortly after and was asked about the DNR, the nurse came out minutes later and told my mom at 4:20 she passed…………

I wish you all the best in your journey, I have been getting on daily since I joined and have found comfort coming here and reading your post. I have learned a lot of “what one goes through” as a patient, survivor and a caregiver. Thank you all I will be back
BIG_SIS

Posted on March 30, 2012 at 1:44:23 PM by Lilsis (, 19 comments, 1470 views)
4 people sent you a prayer.
6 people sent you a hug.

I’m so sorry. Your sister was lucky to have a loving sister like you. My thoughts are with you. I wish I knew something to say.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 1:48:50 PM by Kathysman

 Thank you for your thoughts. we were lucky to have each other, I miss her so..Hope things are going good for you

avatar Posted on April 12, 2012 at 12:18:13 PM by Lilsis

I’m so very, very sorry. Losing a sibling is such a hard thing. For me, it was like a big chunk of my life, especially my childhood, was taken from me when my sister died. There are many things now that only I remember, and that feels very strange. I’m glad you were able to spend time with her towards the end, and that she didn’t suffer too much. Sending strength and hugs your way-Ann

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 1:49:48 PM by Ann

 Thanks Ann. I was 14 when I lost my first sister, i felt apart of my childhood was robbed from me, we were only 4 yr apart and at a time in my life when i needed an “older sister”. My sister Denise is 7 yr older and she was just starting her family.
Fast forwarded now, My sister Denise and I had a bond like none other, we just “got each other”, I guess that what sister’s do…..Now it’s her 2 grown son’s and I. we have reconnected since her DX and look forward to many famiy affairs.. I hope you are doing well

avatar Posted on April 12, 2012 at 12:26:41 PM by Lilsis

 I’m glad to hear that you are developing a relationship with Denise’s sons. I’m very close to my sister’s son, who was 13 when she died, and I know it’s meant a lot to him to have that connection. And I hope you’ll stay connected with us here at BFAC as well. Let us know how you’re doing from time to time if you can. We’ll be thinking of you.

avatar Posted on April 13, 2012 at 1:41:25 PM by Ann

I am soo sorry for your loss. There are no words, time will help you feel better. Take care of yourself.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 1:56:54 PM by Laurie

 That’s what I keep telling myself, ” time will heal the pain”..I gotta believe this. Thanks Laurie

avatar Posted on April 12, 2012 at 12:28:32 PM by Lilsis

I am so sorry to hear this. Know that your whole family is in my thoughts during this difficult time. Rachel xo

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:05:44 PM by Rachel

My heart aches for you. Oh that there were words that could heal… Please read the recent post by Ann (link below) on Beach Glass. You may find some solace in it. Hugs to you, peace to Big Sis.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:08:37 PM by Bill Curry

I’m very sorry for the loss of your sister. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:19:40 PM by Paul

My sincere heartfelt sympathies. She was very fortunate to have you for her short time here. May te sweet memories you shared carry you.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:36:49 PM by KorynH

So sorry. I love you. If you need a sister to grow old with I am here.sounds strange..she lived it like she wanted to and unfortunately got busted for cigarettes..should have been able to have one. What an empty feeling. So so sorry for you. What a huge hole in your heart-we are here if you need us. Sending lots of love, hugs and buckets of support. Please keep in touch. Love you!

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 4:26:41 PM by Eileen

Lilsis,

I am so sorry to hear about your sister, and the sister who passed 27 years ago. You have been through a lot.

Your sister is now in a better place, happy and healthy, reunited with your other sister.

I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers. I’m here for you.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 6:10:22 PM by Sarah Friedman

I just came across your blog today. I wish I had sooner and had been able to offer support and prayers. I am so glad you found this site. There are many wonderful people on here. They really helped me when my mother in law became sick, and were there with me during the end and afterwards. Reading through all your posts I can see the love you both had for each other. I know the pain is raw right now and there is not much that I can say to make it better, but please know you are in my prayers. I pulled up your wedding picture and blew the page up to 200% to get a better look. You were both so happy and looked great in that picture. Much easier said than done, but try to hold on to all your great memories of both your sisters. They are together and you now have 2 angels looking over you. Please keep us posted as to how you’re doing. You are now part of a huge family that care about you.

avatar Posted on March 30, 2012 at 9:54:44 PM by Kellye

Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story with us, you have no idea what a gift you have given by allowing us to learn more. We lost our mother to breast cancer and knowing it was in our genes I have thanked God daily that it hit me and not my two sisters. I can totally relate to your feeling of loss, not by having lost a sister but by knowing a sisters love. You will will be in my thoughts and prayers as I know you are hurting. God bless you. Sharron

avatar Posted on March 31, 2012 at 6:41:34 AM by Sharron

I am terribly sorry for your loss. May God bless you and your family.

avatar Posted on March 31, 2012 at 7:12:24 AM by Private User

Im so sorry for your loss shes in a place she can do whatever she wants in no pain with long lost friends, relatives, and loves. Prayers to you and your family God Bless

avatar Posted on March 31, 2012 at 8:47:03 AM by Mike Rada

So sorry for your loss. I tip my hat to your sis and am praying for both of you.

avatar Posted on March 31, 2012 at 4:35:52 PM by Private User

My deepest condolences. You were both lucky to have one another. You will hold her love in your heart.

avatar Posted on March 31, 2012 at 5:56:49 PM by Andrea

Lilsis,
In case you come back to review. My heart goes out to you. Big, big, hugs. I don’t know why your sisters were taken from you. Hopefully, you have many good friends (aside from BFAC!)-and your mom. Take care.
Carol

avatar Posted on April 2, 2012 at 7:23:06 PM by Carol

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

avatar Posted on April 8, 2012 at 12:31:55 AM by Stacy

I am so sorry for your lost. I know this is so hard for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

avatar Posted on April 13, 2012 at 11:57:32 AM by Stacy

Tears :( :( IM sorry! Praying for you and your family.

avatar Posted on May 12, 2012 at 7:30:11 PM by Angelica






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